Alone

I am
Alone
Amidst a screaming silence
A cold stillness
That engulfs and enfolds
Wrapping tighter and tighter
Choking , cutting off the air
That my lungs crave for.
The quiet ticking of the clock
Magnifies into hammer falls
That crush any hope left
Of a better tomorrow
For I know that
The days shall pass
In a general lassitude
A lazy languor
each like yesterday
No tomorrow that is different
I have come to dread
The heartless monotony
Of time.

I am
Alone
Amidst my broken dreams
Shards of bright hopes
that pierce my heart
As I pick my way though
Stabbing and gashing
Till drops of hop
Bleed away slowly
The laughter of people
Mocks and torments
For they are free souls
Whilst i meander in a maze
Blundering my way through
Pushing and scrabbling
At the sharp thorns
Feeling the pain
But unable to cry
Out loud for at
All costs I must keep up
The face of one who is proud.

I am
Alone
Amidst hordes of people
For my heart does not
Find them like me
I belong to a different
Place, a separate Time
Or maybe its only my delusion.
The time I spend big happy
Gives way to a dread
Fro the time which I must be sad
Why must I sacrifice
My present joy in
The anticipation
Of the sadness
That tomorrow shall bring
Why must I covet
That which no one has?
And keep on oscillating
Between the extremes
Of the exuberance and depression
Of being alive?